The Change Within

RevolutionUpdates on this website are light lately because I have a part time job, am working hard on the documentary, and I also volunteer with my local Occupy activist group.

My health journey has opened my eyes to the dysfunction of the world, and I want to do what I can to fix things so others don’t have to suffer like I have.

I still struggle and experiment to find the one treatment that will give me the health I desire, the cure that I know is out there for my Crohn’s disease. The Low-dose Naltrexone worked well, but isn’t bullet proof. Medical marijuana is risky at times because of the federal prohibition.

I’ve decided that on Sunday May 27th, I will drink a lot of homemade kefir, about 16oz (2 cups) worth. Since drinking even 1/4 tsp gives me diarrhea, this will mean that I will be in the bathroom a lot. Why am I telling you? I don’t know. I guess because it’s lonely in the bathroom.

Why would I purposely ingest something that gives me diarrhea? Because I believe my Crohn’s disease is due to an imbalance of proper gut ecology (dysbiosis). Inside our guts is supposed to be a well-balanced diverse community containing trillions of bacteria, and yeasts. When the healthy balance gets out of whack, it’s called dysbiosis.

There are many causes of Inflammatory Bowel Disease, but the one of dysbiosis is what matches my health history the best. I took many courses of several different kinds of antibiotics as a teenager, and took Accutane, which maker Hoffmann-La Roche is now being sued left and right for its possible link to IBD. I also ate a poor diet, which can negatively impact our gut ecology.

I have been tested a couple of times via a stool analysis which showed that my lactobacillus were extremely low. My dysbiosis has left my immune and digestive systems fubared.

Next to human probiotic infusions (fecal transplants), I think homemade kefir is my best option because of its wide variety of bacteria and yeasts. The kefir grains themselves are a unique culture of microbial ecology.

The kefir will create a civil war between the currently established, but dysfunctional ecology in my gut, and the new one I am introducing.

In a way, it will be a cleansing, a purge of the old and dysfunctional to make room for the new and revolutionary. The question is will revolution bring a more functional existence?

I see the world as a mirror for what is happening to our guts and vice versa. Revolutions have never been pretty, and depending on whose side you are on, they have been either for good or bad.

The documentary Man on Wire tells the story of Philippe Petit who was compelled to walk a tightrope between the two World Trade Center towers in New York City. It was a crazy idea, but one he could not ignore.

Though not as dramatic and life threatening, I feel a similar call. There is much uncertainty of knowing whether it will work, it won’t be fun, but I can’t ignore trying it.

There’s something synchronous about it all. There will be a war within my gut on the 27th. Memorial Day is on the 28th. My thoughts on the Occupy movement I volunteer with have been about revolutions, change, and energy.

I told a fellow occupier how I was frustrated for being low on energy, especially since it is Spring and Summer is less than a month away. I want to be full of energy and passion, creating positive change for future generations. Yet, I feel I am weighed down by a heavy metal jacket.

I’ve been thinking about doing this high dose of kefir for many months, but have kept putting it off because the time was never right.

I can’t wait any longer. I feel we need a revolution in order to change the status quo. As Ghandi once said, “Be the change you want to see in the world.” If it’s change I want to see in the world, I must be willing to change myself first.

With luck, the revolution within will transform me into the person I know I can be; healthy, confident, defiant, and full of energy.

To see the world change, we must look inside ourselves to see the dysfunction of our ways, and ignite the change within.